I was veeery old, probably over 90, I forgot my age- because I also forgot everything else, I had dementia, and I mean one of the bad kind... I forgot the name of my family members, my friends and caretakers, how to do the most mundane tasks, everything... however everytime I saw you there'd be a spark in my eye and a distant idea that I know you from somewhere... during the day I'd be in desperation and discomfort a lot, because of back pain and because I was totally aware I used to know lots of things, and the fact I just couldnt remember them was driving me insane... I was taken care of by some professional caretakers during the day and they kept me busy with the few things I could still do (I don't remember the things, but I'm assuming stuff like playing chess or plucking some leaves off ofherbs) and when I came home in the afternoon and see you, as if it was for the first time I'd tell you "darling, I missed you, I haven't seen you in so long" even tho it was just a few hours and then you'd make me tea with milk and I would tell you that I think I know you from somewhere and you're the most beautiful woman I've ever seen, and everyday you'd tell me "we're married" and everyday to that information I'd be the most joyous person because I married the one person that gives me that pleasant feeling when she's around, even tho I don't remember why, so you'd start telling me about our lives together, you'd tell me about that day on the beach and the walks in the forest, about work, friends we made and things we have archieved, places we've visited and places we had called home, pets we've had, children we've taken care of... and i would not remember a thing but believe every single word you say, because, even tho I don't know why, I have a deep sense of trust in you and your every word, and everyday i'd come home and tell you how much I've missed you, you, I don't even know your name ma'am and you'd say "Alyx" and I'd repeat "Alyx... what a wonderful name" ... and even tho it made you sad sometimes that I don't remember all of this you'd still take the best care of me and when you talked to me about the beautiful life we lived you'd smile back to the memories we've made, by the time you finished talking (and I finished listening with my full attention, asking you questions and asking for more tea and biscuits) it would already be late and you'd bring me to bed and tuck me in and say goodnight, and everyday I'd fall asleep with a smile on my face from what that beautiful woman just told me, because I just found out I'm married to the most wonderful person alive ❤
Date: Day dream on 21/09/2023
Comments: Alyx says "that makes me think of when people get their wisdom teeth removed"